Tuesday, 24 April 2012

lucy's birth story

this is lucy's birth story that i wrote a year ago...


april 24th, 2011... easter sunday... the day before (april 23rd), i spent the whole day making "thank you" gifts (acorn cookie treats) for friends and family who came to my baby shower (two weeks before)... and i cleaned the whole house... it was such a warm day that late that evening while mikko was at our church's youth night, i stood on a chair and washed the front windows... 
easter sunday... went to church... ate lunch there... later that afternoon, we had mikko's 28th birthday party... mikko had ordered a ginormous 12"x18" mint chocolate chip ice cream cake... for 13 people haha...

just after 8 pm... my parents and mikko's parents had JUST left our home... our super good friends were still over with their boys- t, k, e, lil t and m... i was lying on the couch, t had just propped up my feet and i was talking to one of the boys... GUSH!! i jumped up "oh my gosh, oh my gosh, this is so gross... my water broke"... so i panicked a bit, t calmed me down and told me "you're having your baby" :)

i just couldn't believe it! i was only 35 weeks... that's 5 weeks early!! i had so much to do, i hadn't packed my bag, washed the baby clothes, or installed the car seat! we were going to do it all this coming week!... i still needed to sew a quilt!... i was going to finish a few units at school and write report cards!... all this was rushing through my head...

t helped me pack up, e packed up onni's things :), k offered to install the carseat, mikko ran to the store to buy powerade (we were told to buy lots! heh)... and lil t and m were waiting patiently :)

i remember at one point just standing in front of the mirror in our room, and tearing up... t looked at me and said "you're going to be a mommy"... i'm so thankful that she was there! she knew exactly how i was feeling- her first baby was born four weeks early.

mikko came upstairs to tell me that his parents were there to pick up onni. i remember bending over, holding onni's adorable face in my hands and kissing him... crying... somehow i felt sad for him, for the situation, knowing that things will never be the same again... he won't be my only baby anymore...

mikko called the midwife... my primary wasn't on this weekend (which she happen to tell me just three days before), and my second was on vacation- so it was my third who was with us through the labour (luckily i had met her early in the pregnancy). she told us to meet her at the hospital at 9 pm, knowing that the baby is breech, and my water had just broke. so far no contractions.

well, contractions started pretty well when we hung up the phone. all the pain was in my lower back. i just sat in the living room while everyone hustled around me. t and k were just wondering where mikko was and what was taking him so long... he was buying the powerade and chapstick!

t told me that in the car she was calculating that the contractions were 2-3 mins apart...

just after 9 pm... at the hospital, the midwife had to swab me and check that my water had in fact broke (as i'm leaking all over the bed...). she also checked- i was 3cm dialated... and for the first time in her career, she felt feet rather than a head or bum! she knew the contractions were crazy fast... it had only been an hour since my water broke. so while having contractions, dr's and nurses were rushing in and out and all around... they were explaing things to me, but really i have no idea what anyone said to me... they said it's going to have to be a c-section, and it has to happen within the next hour (this was around 10 pm)... what?! the baby's coming NOW?!! TODAY?!! this is mikko's birthday... baby acorn is supposed to be here in may...

we were trying to figure out when i had eaten last (i assumed it had been ice cream cake at mikko's party) because it was important for the anaesthesiologist to know (so i wouldn't get sick)... really though, it didn't matter at this point! i needed the c-section!

i sat in a wheelchair and a nurse rushed me into the operating room... during contractions, got me onto this super hard metal bed/table, and strapped my legs down!- that was just insane... having contractions and not being able to move...

then i was in the room alone for what felt like a million years... it was brutal, i didn't know what to do...

midwife joined me... she panicked when i said "i need to push"... and said "i'm so sorry, but i have to tell you- you can't push!"... she went in the hallway and looked for the anesthesiologist and another dr (mikko later told me that it was like a movie scene, midwife in the hallway yelling for a dr. to come!)... mikko wasn't allowed in the room yet (i later learned that he was in some other room close by, just pacing back and forth, not knowing where i was...) so the midwife told me to lean on her, over her shoulder... i kept on apologizing every time i squeezed her hand, but she told me i had no reason to be sorry, that she should be the one to be sorry for not letting me push!

the anesthesiologist finally came... he told me to arch over like a cat... and poke! mikko was finally able to join me... i told him i felt like a balloon... and ah! that was just what i needed... apparently i was 9 cm... at some point i noticed my arms where out, like a crucifix... and it was easter sunday...

then, c-section was finally underway... i really wish i could have seen the whole thing- seriously! i was trying to see the reflection of the surgery by looking at the rim of the lamp above me. 
lucy minttu was born at 11:13 pm... on april 24th, 2011 :)
so: after 8 pm... water broke... after 9 pm... 3 cm dialated... 11 pm... 9 cm dialated... 11:13 pm... lucy!
about 3 hours of labour... yeah, it was intense... 
she weighed 5.45 lbs and measured 19"... not such a baby acorn anymore ;)

so, what was her rush? no space left, none at all... no space to grow or to flip (no way she would have flipped!)... apparently i have a heart shaped uterus... looks more like two uteruses... and she was on one side.

it was a very crazy experience... i know... would i do it again? you bet :) tomorrow?... maybe not yet ;)

we're really enjoying being with our daughter :) it hasn't been an easy recovery though... lucy lost over 10% of her birth weight (of course my body was expecting to have about 5 more weeks to prepare for feeding her)... so we feed every 3 hours, it was initally every 2.5 hours... each feeding takes well over an hour (i breastfeed, then we finger feed, then i pump...)... her body temperature was 36, so we've had lots of skin to skin (which i love!!), and warming up under blankets.... she was jaundiced, so mikko was making daily visits to the hospital with her (i would have just slowed us down even more). her little body is finally improving, and mine is finally healing.

it wasn't an option. lucy needed to be born via c-section. but it was really a traumatic experience for me... i was overjoyed to have my daughter with us, yet i still felt as though she had been *taken out of me* without my permission... like she was a part of me, and was taken out... after her birth, i would often wake up in the night, panicking when i noticed that my baby-belly was gone... i'd lift up the covers, and there was nothing there... i realize hormones were crazy soon after giving birth, but i still couldn't help the feelings...

lucy is just adorable :) i can't wait for you all to meet this little acorn :)






*** can't believe a whole year, exactly! a year has passed by... at this time a year ago, my water had already broke and we had just got into the hospital. 
this year is different- lucy is sleeping soundly upstairs in her crib (surprisingly after her first sugar high from a cupcake!)... oh how i adore that sleeping baby- i think i have to go peek on her ♥

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